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What's up @MDT ?

[outlander]

Whats up @MDT

[Former-Member]

@MDT,you seem all-over the place,one minute you are in control,next minute you are the opposite,wherecIm basically on the same depressed plane constantly.You put yourself under too much expectation, pressure,that is obvious.Yes it's hard for singles,when I moved away tried Internet dating,big mistake did it because I was lonely,and it's far from reality with people bulls****** about themselves.I understand,just Xmas approaching knowing I have it on my own and still no money/job scares me.Your life is in momentum,just take it as it comes @MDT,you can only take it one day at a time.We all know that here.

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Hearing that @Former-Member same pretty much

[MDT]

im just bored or something...
like im stuck in a shell.. that i cant seem to bust open..
very depressed and hopeless atm.. cant pin it to anything in particular..
i want to change things but cant seem to find the energy to..
want to move ahead in my life...
yet im here all sad and lonely... angry yet sad

[Former-Member]

💌@Hamsolo01

[soul]

Hi @MDT,

As you are heading into the home straight with uni, I think you should focus on that and doing your best to procure a position for next year. Relationships will come but they can put an added pressure on what I feel is already an anxious time for you.

When you've got that degree in your pocket and are in the workforce there will be all sorts of opportunities for you to socialise and find more friends and perhaps even a partner. I'm guessing this concern is caused by your perception that everyone else is in a relationship and that makes them happy. The truth is that relationships take effort. If your not in a good head space, a relationship is going to run into problems. Concentrate on being happy and liking yourself first before you venture out to find that special person.

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Yes @soul 2 halves make a whole but 1 or 2 with bits missing doesn't add up. You have time @MDT use it. Not too many singles looking for angry down on self people plus its really not fair to them if it happened so put that one of your standards away please. What does your psych say about this? Not asking asking but ask yourself what you are doing. Did they give you a plan or something or just meds? Do you do anything they suggest? Just asking

[MDT]

Hey all
Thanks for the help
I agree.
The problem is self based... so relationships wont change that.
I guess i have been working on the self part.
There is still time and i dont need time as an enemy.
A lot of life seems to be about how you own what you end up with. Guess thats what i should do.
I need money first and foremost so i should push my efforts into that.
Need to take it easier today. Got a bit of tutoring this morning, need fo post a letter and go to the bank and get a caffeine hit.
All in a day's work.

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It money is what you want @MDT it is still more likely to happen after you become okay with you.. or how your life is . Relationships might be an option but probably dont expect too much til you are ok with you. Its not the end of the world when you have a bad day.. ok it may seem like it if you extrapolate that to the rest of your time on planet. Not sure who could deal with that self pressure .. anyway thats my 2c for today