Yes @outlander
Complex regional pain disorder - of course - I know that's difficult condition to treat and can only be managed. I might be repeating myself because I wrote a long message last night - lying in bed with my laptop on my tummy and somehow deleted the whole message - darn it.
I read that your Pop's daughter moved in uninvited - now that's a real spanner in the works unless she's there to help with your Pop - uh ha - I guess not as you didn't call her your aunt. I won't write what I really think about that except you have enough on your plate.
I read right through this thread last night - yeah - I really understand. You have an idea about making the future better for yourself and you are actually achieving. Education does improve lives - it was my saving when I went through my dark years. Actually every - just about - told me that going to university was too much - actually it was my troubled son and sad marriage - my studies were the easy part though I had to defer sometimes.
It seems to me that people are too much of you and you are a good hearted - a kindhearted person- you are still caring for at least one of your sisters as well. That's a lot - and you would like to get a place on your own. That's a brilliant aim. I hope you can achieve that - it would make some much difference - I have lived alone for about 34 years now and I get along with my own company - we never disagree or argue - we like the same food and TV programmes.
Other people - yeah - perhaps if we could swap lives with the people who seem to have it easier - they might learn how bitter some pills are - and chronic pain is definitely unpleasant. My pain specialist told me there would be very few people lining up to have what I have - that's my irreparable shoulder injury - and I cope with it much better than most people. It agrees it's not easy and I know your life is not easy and for the years I have known you - you have battled. And you are a battler - not that my saying this makes it any easier for you. Maybe knowing there is one person who does might. And I do.
I remember you were hurt by a horse a long time ago - someone else's horse you were wrangling. I forget what happened. And you had trouble with your teeth as well.
That's a bunch of really tough issues. I really care Outlander. You never did anything to deserve all of this - this is what you have and it's really tough.
Sending my best thoughts
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