~ R U OKAY? Maybe not, but I’m surviving ~

[Kyle1]

I felt incredibly sad and tired today. Inspite of that I managed to take myself driving for a house inspection, fill out an online application (incredibly hard for a Luddite like me), cook dinner and relax under the camellias at the coffee shop a while. On top of that I found Grace rather than fear in communication with my abuser today.

At the moment I should be punching the air and strutting with a victory pose, but I am still just so tired and so numb.

Be that as it may, the writing on the wall tells me I did OK today. It'll do.

[Jynx]

@Kyle1 that's incredible to hear. And a victory is still a victory even if we don't have the energy to celebrate it. I imagine after some rest, perhaps it will settle in more solidly. What an amazing thing to have accomplished, big kudos to you 💜

[creative_writer]

@Jynx, ADHD would make things harder for sure, but you’ve got this💗. I’ve been doing well emotionally, but still flu-ey. I managed to get through a day of uni. I’ve only been doing uni from home this week

@Kyle1, you are strong and amazing ♥️

[Kyle1]

🫂🫂💛 @creative_writer 

[Kyle1]

🙏🕊 @Jynx 

[Bunniekins]

@Jynx   I have my son1 home

[Dimity]

@Jynx @Kyle1 @Shaz51 @Jacques @NatureLover @tyme I do have a win after all... I'm eligible to give blood despite my med and am booked in for next week

[Eve7]

My little wins @Jynx 

I had a week off Uni so I went to the library to borrow some books. I’ve just finished reading Spare.

Ive walked every day this week.

Set goals for spring cleaning and so far so good.

[Kyle1]

Nice. A very noble gesture @Dimity 

When my son was born he needed 2 transfusions...

I applaud you! 👏 

[Owlunar]

Thanks for tagging me @hanamihanami - I reckon an RUOK day is a bit weird - after all - we who are on the other side of the RUOK question might need a lifetime of other people's awareness and I am pretty sure that won't happen.

Chronic pain is a tough issue and yes - I get it - people sometime ask if I am alright. Alright! I have pain and I can hardly stand it when someone says "Poor thing" because I am not - I say - "Please don't say that - I am not sorry for myself" -

And I am not - there are worse things - and I also have courage, resilience, fortitude and a satirical sense of humour - so yes - these things are great - I don't look at life through rose-colored glasses - if anything - I am a bit of a pessimist - and to me - life is full of wonderful surprises.

At my age the glass is half-empty - of course - it has to be - and I am sure I will make the best use of what remains. My daughter suggested I should be in an old age home - why on earth would I want that? - I felt - still feel - insulted. My life is too interesting to give up on myself and retired into a restricted protocol of what people think I SHOULD be doing. 

Am I OK - not always - but I can last it out - there is always something around the corner - whatever it might be.

But for people who are not OK - that is a different story - and one day of public awareness a year - what a load of (enter any appropriate word you choose) - people need more than the public having a sense of awareness - I do my best here and if I am not - I am probably dealing with something or other.

And I do hate to be ordered to have a nice day or a wonderful evening - I just say all the best - the best of what is up to other people.

But I do care - and I try to inspire other people - 

It's not easy though - to be OK - I find it easier to accept than most - it's taken a long time and a lot of experience though.

All the best

Owlunar