Coming to terms with reality

[Shaz51]

Thanks @Vanessa5

I will have a look , mr shaz was diagnosed with  clinical depression, 

[Appleblossom]

@eudemonism Thanks for saying what your day looks like.  It has a quiet dignity.

I dont mean to repeat myself and go on about my stuff but each time I express it. It helps reduce my screaming rage a little.  I dont mean it as a pure vent but try and relate things so it is a conversation.

@Adek I hope you make the right decision about marriage.  Personally I have needed to be alone for the last 15 years, my cats are the only ones welcome in my bed. When I was married I was big on the family bed and lots of massages and cuddles and snuggles, but it all got too much.

@Vanessa5 I do like your writing and @eudemonism

I liked the Ruby Wax youtubes.  It could be good to post some links on MI and humnour thread. It might get more views that way.

A few of her "lines" are very similar to "lines" I have lived and celebrate. 

LIke finding my tribe in the psyche ward and learning things from my pets.

@Former-Member I did not mean to be rude. I was not upset, just tried to clarify. We have shared so much so far, and I love your posts to others too. Its just that I have feelings about the fact that there has not been a proper diagnosis, so nothing to hide behind and get clear help for, Its usually go away your are doing fine.

Take care everyone.

[Former-Member]

hello all

I am fine...a tad weary and over sensitive to boot...have still not heard from son...sister had another op on bladder today and mum pretty depressed now in nursing home..visited her yesterday...husband also depressed now...

is it catching now?

I have had clinical depression for long time sometimes referred to as major...whatever..I am just me not my depression or other labels,

my cousin in uk went to see ruby wax .. Very good 

I didn't think anyone was rude...misunderstanding  with this type of communication 

moving on

having lunch with other son tomorrow then catch up with sister

too cold here to walk today

take care everyone 

speak again

[Adek]

Hi @Shaz51. Am doing good and i hope same goes for you and your hubby. I am so addicted to sitting with scholars from all over the world and listening to their words of wisdom since i retired 7 years ago. So as u can see...my whole month schedule is normally lined up with at least one seminar or gathering or forum each week. Sometimes 3 in a week. Sometimes 2 in a day...it depends. I followed postings on facebook to get myself preinformed of the dates and venues and fill up my monthly planner with them..squeezing them between my visits to hospital, mom's and sometimes had to reschedule my appointment with the psycho and physio therapists too.

These had been my major therapy i think..especially attitudewise and in reshaping my perception towards life. You take care and thank you for checking on me once a while otherwise i might drop out from the thread when the schedule gets tight.

[eudemonism]

Hi everyone.

I'm hearing what you're all saying. And I'm sorry for any inappropriate things i said which offended anyone. I'm not angry or upset with anyone neither to i blame anyone. It's all my illness. And i suppose I'm just really disappointed that i am having trouble living a fabulously perfect life. Full of happiness, health, and contentment. (Even if i wasn't mentally ill, I'd probably still suffer greatly )

I fixate on what i think will solve my suffering. And have these ideas about what my suffering is caused bye. And when it comes to symptoms! It's an extremely complicated scenario to understand because it's all in my head. And involves so many complicated elements. Fears, beliefs, ideology, euphoric scenarios, two key categories i suppose you could say. (Grandiose and persecutory )

Plus there other psychical, environmental and social factors... all rather tiring... trying to get it just right is hard work...

Hope you all have a good day

[eudemonism]

My original plan of a hermit and recluse life style is gonna be my main focus from now on. Minimize. Simplify. Keep it real basic. Sleep in. Do only what i have too. Get a full nights sleep. Eat well. Socialize. A little exercise. And yeah....... peace of mind.

[Former-Member]

hello @eudemonism

You have not offended anyone......my post started the whole muddle....You nothing to apologise for

I have seen your positive, motivated, ambitious side..

yes you have a huge struggle daily...no disputing that...no dismissing....no judgement

I have hope for you........you have potential to achieve satisfaction....you are a creative person with varied interests

you can do this

@Adek @Appleblossom @Vanessa5 @eudemonism

you have all disclosed your struggles and how you deal with them..

I want to read your stories ....your daily trials how some days you achieve others you rest....others you just be

I am here to listen...I can't change your situations....I can provided support ....hope....care

we all need that in this world...none of us are islands

speak again

[eudemonism]

No one is really able to help with my mental health issues anyway. Or more importantly. Help me live a more decent and quality life.

I figure it's just a case of accepting the situation i am stuck in. And applying thoughts to my situation that don't induce anymore suffering.

All this mumbo jumbo about an education. Exercising. Healthy food. Good sleep routine. And attending counselling. Doctors appointments. Keeping in contact with nurses and support workers. Doing psychology. Is just a load of nonsense! I'm heading back toward living the life i was living before the system intervened. So what they have achieved i am not quite sure of...

[eudemonism]

Rather pointless they even tell me I'm mentally ill in the first place. When after twelve years. I figure my life life is no different then two days before they began terrorizing me. (Intervened ) good on the government workers of this country.

[eudemonism]

Waste of hard earned tax payers dollars. That's what the government means to me....... they should be ashamed and embarrassed of themselves!