Hi everyone.

I'm hearing what you're all saying. And I'm sorry for any inappropriate things i said which offended anyone. I'm not angry or upset with anyone neither to i blame anyone. It's all my illness. And i suppose I'm just really disappointed that i am having trouble living a fabulously perfect life. Full of happiness, health, and contentment. (Even if i wasn't mentally ill, I'd probably still suffer greatly )

I fixate on what i think will solve my suffering. And have these ideas about what my suffering is caused bye. And when it comes to symptoms! It's an extremely complicated scenario to understand because it's all in my head. And involves so many complicated elements. Fears, beliefs, ideology, euphoric scenarios, two key categories i suppose you could say. (Grandiose and persecutory )

Plus there other psychical, environmental and social factors... all rather tiring... trying to get it just right is hard work...

Hope you all have a good day