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[Former-Member]

Hi All,

Just to let you know I'll take a little break from the forums. I've had an extremely hard week (yes I know it's only hump day) and I need a mental break. I am safe, but won't come online for a few days.

Take good care and see you soon!

[suzanne]

Take care of yourself @Former-Member.  We'll still be here!

[Kurra]

I'll be thinking of you @Former-Member. Rest up and return to us when you're ready. You will be in our thoughts and prayers.

Take care and stay safe. 🎶💕👭

[BlueBay]

take care @Former-Member xxoo

[Former-Member]

Thanks @suzanne @Kurra @BlueBay

Looks like my break will take place in hospital.

Take care x

[Appleblossom]

I hope hospital is good for you. @Former-MemberYou deserve to be cared for.

[Former-Member]

@Appleblossom

Hospital will be different this time because I am different. Last time I was overwhelmed and not knowing why I even ended up there. This time it's a choice. I need help now and I'm not letting it get out of hand. Last time I was a frightened little child, this time I have a plan. I remember they ask on the admission form what are your goals for the admission. I had none back then as I did not even know there was a goal. I have goals now. I will come out stronger and get the support I need for my current mental state (mess) and I want to be rid of some meds.

I am determined to channel all this anger and negative energy into something positive for me. F* the past!

[Appleblossom]

@Former-Member

Yes we do change. I am glad you will be able to get the best out of the services.  Thinking of you.  

You sound as if you have firm resolve, 

[suzanne]

So good to hear of your determination to get something positive out of your admission @Former-Member.  Fighting words!  Let us know how it's gone.

[Former-Member]

Hi @suzanne,

Yeah fighting words... don't feel like there's much action happening though. As usual I am way too impatient... I haven't even unpacked my bag 🙂

To be honest I think I have learnt a lot as I am in a different place with very different patients and like I said, I started out with a better frame of mind. But I'm still searching for that magic wand to make it all go away - and when I've finished my temper tantrum I know again that the magic wand doesn't exist, so I'm starting to see my flare ups with a bit of humour - I think that can't be so wrong! A cry and a temper tantrum, a laugh and a joke...