Battles

[Dreamy]

@rav3n definitely need a magic pause button, just enough for me to catch my breath. 

I've already been through courts enough and I didn't want it to have to go back down that path, but I have to protect innocent lives and I'll do whatever it takes to do that. 

Thankyou ❤️. 

I have felt so close to the edge all day and I know it's only going to get worse as the night goes on. Secure me to this earth however you can [edited by moderator]

[rav3n]

@Dreamy surely with the amount of tech that exists, someone should get on inventing that ASAP!! 

really admire your compassion and determination in helping others. despite it being a lengthy and heavy process, i hope that knowing your fighting for a worthy purpose helps you get through it. 

nights are tricky hey, but yes - don't worry i'm here. currently super-gluing our seats to the floor, i've got a bunch of other tools ready if the glue isn't enough 💙

also p.s. i've edited the last bit of your post out just to make sure it meets the guidelines around 'pressure on others' - please don't stress abt it, i just have to let you know as apart of my modding duties but you're all good! and if you have any questions about it, feel free to reach out.

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

Are these friends the one who work at the shop that have been so nice to you?  It's always hard when people decide to move on and we lose having them around.

At least this place is supporting you.  Hopefully it's enough that it makes it easy enough for you to get some help and support.  This phone call this afternoon sounds like it's thrown a lot of stuff at you.  I've never been to court before, but i understand the thought of it must be daunting, but you can get through it.   I know there's so much going on, but try to think about them as individual things, rather than one big thing.  Small steps and one problem at a time.

I take it courts bring back a lot of emotions for you, and it sounds like there's a lot on the line with this one.  Just know you have us here to support you through as best we can.

[Dreamy]

@rav3n you'd think so by now 😂. 

Yeah I know that it's worth fighting for. But what if it doesn't work out and things are worse, that's what worries me. 

Nights are really tricky especially lately. Not sure the super-glue will be enough tonight, things are getting very intense very fast. 

All good, thankyou for letting me know. 

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 yes they are those friends and one especially that I get hugs from, but we are all planning on catching up in the future so hopefully that happens. I don't hold my breath cos usually when people say that it just never happens and I don't hear from them again. 

Yes I have the support but at the same time due to safety they've deemed it inappropriate to continue with what the service actually provides. But they can help me in other ways in order to hopefully sort out this situation. I'm trying to take one step at a time but when there's so much happening it's hard to tackle one thing at a time. 

You have no idea just how many bad memories it brings back, things that shouldn't have happened. Even just the thought of it now sends me into a panic, it really is a very traumatic experience. 

Thankyou, it really means alot ❤️.

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

Hopefully you do get to catch-up with these people in the future.  But I totally get your doubts.  I've heard the same thing many times, even from family... and I'm still waiting.  So zI understand not wanting to get your expectations too high.

It is definitely difficult to do things one at a time when there's som much!  But it's easier than trying to deal with everything at once.  Unfortunately there's no easy way.  But prioritizing and tackling a small number at a time can make it feel less overwhelming. Hopefully this support 'in other ways' can make it a bit easier for you.

It just sucks that you have to go through all of this with the courts, dragging up all these memories in top of the new stresses.  I'm sorry that crap keeps piling up for you.  You deserve far better.  As always, we're here if you want a chat or some distractions.

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 yeah I don't get my hopes up, I mean I've caught up with the one guy a few times but then it just stopped. I just can't take the disappointment so it's easier to for me to not expect anything. 

Yeah that's the thing alot of these things have to be dealt with all at the one time cos they all sort of intertwine with each other. I just hope that I can get support going through this cos I'm not sure i can do it alone. 

The court process is going to be absolute hell, facing one of the people that abuses me in order to protect innocent lives. 

I always need those chats and distractions and even more so at the moment.

@rav3n Wanna have a laugh, I was having a meltdown, like the world was gonna end over not being able to find one of my pencils, and I needed it for the next picture I'm doing. Anyway turns out my lounge tried to swallow it 😂

[rav3n]

that's a valid worry to have, it's definitely hard not to stress about it when you're putting so much effort and energy into this. i guess one step at a time is all you can do, and i'll keep hoping that things work out for you too. @Dreamy if hope is too painful to hold right now, i got a whole load to share and hold for you.

so now i've brought back those magnets from the other night & i'm working on creating a lil dome for us so that if you do feel floaty, the dome will help keep you grounded. and the dome has a starry night design, so you can watch the constellations and maybe even spot a few planets too. 

HAHA the frustration over losing a pen is REAL. and the fact that your lounge swallowed it up makes it funnier 😆 this reminded me of how last week, i spent 10mins looking for a pen and was about to cry. went to wash my face and saw in the mirror... i left it tucked on top of my ear.

also hiya @MJG017 how's your Friday going?

[Dreamy]

@rav3n I have to throw every bit of strength and energy I have into this situation in the hope that things work out the right way. Holding that hope myself at the moment is far too much, so I'm definitely passing that over to you guys to hold that hope for me right now. 

Ok so we have the magnets back in action, that floaty feeling is strong tonight. This dome sounds fun, @MJG017 you wanna join us? We all enjoy that starry sky to look at, and you can teach us all about those planets 😊.

It's definitely real, I was like how can it have gone anywhere, I went through every single pencil cos they all have specific colour names and it wasn't there, I only had it last night so I knew it couldn't have gone far. Haha that's classic, finding it when you looked in the mirror. If that was me I would have never found it, i don't look in mirrors 😂.

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

I totally understand that not wanting to take the disappointment any more.  I still always fall for it though... sort of.  If someone says "we'll have to catch up", I don't really get me hopes up anymore, but there's a part of me that always thinks "maybe this time it will happen".  Then it doesn't and I get angry at myself for even entertaining the thought!

If anyone can get through this, even alone, it's you.  But lets hope it doesn't come to that.  Hopefully they can do something to help you through this process.  They have to understand how traumatic this must be for you!

I can't even imagine how difficult it must be to face someone like that, so I wont try to give any useless advice on how to make it easier.  Al I can say that if it was me, and I looked at them, I would just think about that i was doing this to protect those innocent lives.  And just hope that gave me the strength.  And I know how much that thought drives you, so use it to your advantage as much as you can! 

Damn couches!  You need to feed yours more so that it doesn't eat your pencils.  I feed mine old remotes.

Oowww... a being in a dome with stars on the inside!  I'm in!  It reminds me of this gadget I found that I want so bad!  But it's stupid expensive for what it does.  But i just want it so bad.  

https://professorplums.com.au/products/homestar-flux-home-planetarium-star-projector

You get slides for it with different views.  Even now, i'm trying not to order it! 😖

Just be careful what you wish for.  Get me started on talking about astronomy, and you wont shut me up! 🤣

My Friday has been very quiet @rav3n.  the next couple of weeks are quite bust so enjoying the free day while I can.  I do have plans to meet my sister tomorrow morning.  I only met her 4 years ago.  She's the only one of my biological family that I still have contact with.  We're both very similar in so many ways, including that we are both terrible are keeping in contact, we we both admit.  So it's really nice to catch up when we can.