Battles

[Dreamy]

@Jynx I just don't understand it. I can't even feel anything other than panic. Then comes the dark thoughts and urges cos it feels like the whole world has come crashing down. 

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

Like i said, try not to panic until you have more information.  When I was first diagnosed I got overwhelmed by thinking of all the things that might happen.  The only way I got through it all was to just focus on the next test or appointment, get the information and then take things from there.  And if there is a big debt, we'll put our heads together and figure out what to do. 

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 I'm trying. I've put music on my speaker and I've wrapped myself in a blanket. Yes I'm freezing cold sitting under my aircon. It's Wednesday night which means my routine is broken and I have to deal with people for a couple of hours. Not quite sure how yet but I have a couple of hours still before I have to contend with that so I'm trying to just focus on right now. 

[Jynx]

Makes sense to feel like this @Dreamy it's a huge stress to have landed on your lap. If there's nothing to be done today, then today is about just focusing on self-care mayhaps?

[Dreamy]

@Jynx I've got a couple of hours before I have to deal with the sensory overload of being in a gymnasium with lots of people. At the moment my music is blasting, my blanket is around me and I'm colouring in. But I'm filled with dark thoughts, so much so that I've started a chat with lifeline cos it's a bit too much to deal with right now. Just hoping I get someone that is helpful cos otherwise it's going to make things worse. 

[Dreamy]

@Jynx and that was a big fail. So sitting alone with those dark thoughts it is 😞

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

We're sitting her with you as well.  I'm sorry it's been such an overwhelming day for you.

[rav3n]

hey @Dreamy just been catching up on what's been happening for you today, i can't imagine how overwhelming all this must be. i hear how hard it is to cope with all this, feel your feels and we'll be here with you.

sitting with you, and holding a bright, big torch on those dark thoughts. 

[Jynx]

Ahhh nuts @Dreamy that's no good. You could always try again in an hour or so, get someone different. 

Here with you hun 🫂

[Dreamy]

@rav3n @MJG017 @Jynx @Ru-bee last night is repeating itself. I'm being full on screamed abuse at. My ears are ringing, my head is pounding. I'm sick of being in this situation 😞.