@Jynx I've got a couple of hours before I have to deal with the sensory overload of being in a gymnasium with lots of people. At the moment my music is blasting, my blanket is around me and I'm colouring in. But I'm filled with dark thoughts, so much so that I've started a chat with lifeline cos it's a bit too much to deal with right now. Just hoping I get someone that is helpful cos otherwise it's going to make things worse.