Looking after ourselves
@Former-Member
Never really got into shopping. I worked in them a lot early on 12-16 yrs. First in an Old fashioned variety store, then milk bar, where we mostly sold cigarettes and women fashion, where I did not like the bitchy sales girls, moved on and upwards to waitressing lol. Find shopping totally boring and a big con by capitalism. Eventually I went back to school and uni etc and did read Marx. Also sick of being told as a woman how much I owe to stuff and money and men. It plays a role but thats all. I dont fill my house every few years or have a high recycle rate. Have a lot of old things. Thinking about spending $300 on books this year, that will make a difference to the writers and help various causes. That will be big spend for this year apart from the paving ... lol Do it in one foul swoop so I can spend rest of time doing music or working for various causes.
When I was looking after kids I wished I was a nurse. I only had basic First Aid training from work which was better than nothing ... but there was so much I did not know about little humans.
I do have a home, but safety generally in the home and in my bed and head, has been an issue that still makes safety in my skin problematic. Would kids be better of without me and have house etcetc. I have to WORK hard now, telling myself I deserve to be alive. Its alright, I can live. That sort of thing. It should not be extra work, but there is so much I could not take for granted. Now I notice what others take for granted a lot. I dont feel jealousy, just a kind of distant ... oh thats what it is like to have a front door, to put between me and the rest of the world. I guess it is how early homelessness has marked me. The logical part of me kicks in with care taking ... householding ... repairs, growing vegies etc. I know 2 people who chose rentals over owning for less responsibility and worry. Some people seem jealous of me that I have a home and that stands between us being friends, they want me to support them in their misery, and I was hoping for an occasional walk coffee or movie. Just because I was poor and from a poor family did not mean I married for money or a house. He (my ex) has a bigger house and more land and always was secure in his right to it. He deliberately undermined my confidence even though I left the tax office and that helped him gain confidence, as he had my total support with his children, while we had a private company for 8 years, before he decided to go back to full time job. The gender presumptions can be so insulting, but underlies a lot of issues in my current social life. I am also a woman who did stem subjects, ie maths and science. I did not need to hang onto a man who knew science. I was sad and dissappointed by my husbands wooo pseudo science side which was part of his psychosis and schizophrenia and his mockery of religion or anything deeper or spiritual. Sorry thats a long post.
@PeriI am glad you liked the deeper conversation. I still hunger for them.
@Former-Memberand others reading along ..
Hope my rant does not put you off.
