I've never sought help before, I am the one who calmly holds things together. There is a lot of mental illness in my family but I've never felt like I got to a place where I wasn't coping.

I'm due with my third child in a few weeks. I don't know if I am coping and if I will cope.

I have suddenly found our family to be in financial turmoil. I have now found out we are in more debt than we can forseeably pay. Even if I went back to work full time right after having the baby it won't help. My husband works 14 hour days almost every day of the week. I can't afford many baby things like a cot but we're also not entitled to any financial help. I owe money to centrelink and the government. It feels like I'm drowning.

I also don't know how I'm going to fit the baby into our life. I have to look after my older kids and work full time. I just feel like what the heck am I going to do?

We've been sick for weeks with flu/gastro/viruses and it's not helping my mood. I just wish I could buy the things I want for this baby and enjoy my pregnancy. Instead I feel like crying all the time. I feel guilty for feeling stressed and I don't know how that's affecting my baby. I am so worried about the birth too as I've had birth trauma for my previous deliveries. I don't know who to turn to or talk about it with and it feels like I'm in a deep hole I won't get out of.
My husband is very kind and I don't want to burden him anymore with my feelings as he's already under so much pressure to dig us out of this financial hole and support our family. He'll need to look after our older kids and I don't know how he will, he'll have no time off work. If I don't hold it together, I won't be able to help my family try and work our way out of this mess, I'll make it worse.