Please help - my depression is really bad

[Gwynn]

Hi @Arizona, sitting with you. Could it be post birthday blues?

[Arizona]

@wellwellwellnez , I can hardly think or write, my depression is so overwhelming. I think you are right. It's like my emotions are locked away and I can't feel anything. I have often wondered if my depression is like a defense mechanism that somehow shuts down my emotions.

The little girl's voice is beautiful. It makes me want to listen to Amy Winehouse. 

Thank you very much for your replies 

@Oaktree @Historylover @Eden1919 @Appleblossom Sorry if I have missed anyone. 

@Eden1919 I'm not even sure how I'm feeling. I just know that I have never felt like this. Thank you for being there for me.

[Arizona]

@Gwynn I don't think so. I'm sorry, I'm not very good at expressing myself right now.

[Historylover]

Thinking of you, @Arizona and sending best wishes.

Yes, she is very Amy Winehouse, isn't she?  And a little bit Frida Kahlo to my mind.

Take care.  You did very well to respond.  Have a restful night.

[Gwynn]

That’s ok. We’re here for you. 🙂.

[Arizona]

Hi @oceangirl , I have a phone appointment with my therapist tomorrow. 

I don't have a GP that I trust or feel comfortable with.

There are no underlying issues. That has all been investigated.

[wellwellwellnez]

You're  defence mechanism analysis has given me a serious thought for pause. What often seems like "finding" once found, feels more like allowing or permitting. Maybe even also like recognizing but actually not recognising but more like re-re-recognising or something (or maybe integrating or embracing are better words). I dunno. Words are so wordy. So many of the factors we talk about don't even speak the same language as we do when we talk to each other. It's so weird.

[Arizona]

I'm starting to feel better, like I can move now. I think talking to you guys is helping. 

I'm going to drink some water.

Thank you ❤

[Gwynn]

Glad to hear! 🥳🥳🥳

[RedHorse]

I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling depressed and anxious  @Arizona  I sure hope it passes completely soon.

In the meantime here's a pic of my Granddogs, lining up to add to your daily dose of Pug love.

Sending you virtual hugs and positive vibes.

RedHorse 🌹🐴