@Mr_stress, think I know how you feel, so many times I just lay in bed fading away, sometimes all day - no food, only water and toot. Doesnt evrn occur to me to ask 'how do i feel' 'where am I' 'how did I get here' 'what am i thinking'
Do it for 3 days and I lose 5kg of weight - something that makes everyone happy - less of me... ... ...
Its only later, i realise what i was thinking: - 'i cant do it anymore' 'whats the point' 'who notices anyway?' ' who cares if i fade away' 'who would wants to see me even if we bother' 'what difference does anything make' 'ifci stay here under the covers nothing else can go wrong' ... ... ...
All gloomy unhelpful thoughts & beliefs. Somehow I come out of it hat place every time, eventually, and glad I do when I sit in the garden a while - noticing things. The different greens everywhere, the breeze on my cheeks, the song of the bird, the alarm at russling leaves on the ground as small garden lizards scurry about, the rootbound plant calling to be repotted, the scented flower wanting to scent your room.
Hope you're still with us, sending light, love & inner peace xox
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