I want to do everything all at once... HELP!

[KirSa_EnigmA]

I would be calling the support line but they're not open right now. 

I just have so much that I want to do and think about, and not enough time. 

My focus is shot... I'm scattered and excited all at once. 

Energy... but can't decide where to put it.

Discover the secrets of the universe...

Or learn music theory... 

Or renovate teh house... 

Or write quirky, funny advertisements... 

Or exercise... run, gym, swim, stretch, martial arts!

Watch ALL the martial arts movies... 

Read intensely ALL the science fiction short stories from 1970's to now (and collect them!)  

Cook and eat all the delicious things... 

But, I can't for the life of me do the dishes or fold the damn laundry! /cry

I've been away, and busy helping a friend move house these past days. 

I'm waking early and my brain is like: "Ready... now!" but my body is more: "Bleaaargh". 

Brain wins. 

I have to move.  

I know it'll prob take ages for a response so no pressure haha! 

I just needed to put this somewhere. 

What do I do?  Do I let it out?  Do I squash it down and contain it? 

Is there any other alternative?  

[Dimity]

Hello @KirSa_EnigmA 

It sounds unsettling for you.

Is it possible you're on the verge of a hypomanic or mixed state? How do you usually manage these? Do you try to keep on track with meals, sleep and meds? For me that's what I'd do  and get some gentle exercise like walking outside. I can also boost my med a little PRN.

[KirSa_EnigmA]

@Dimity thanks for your reply. 

I think things are a bit more under control now.

I admit considering a few less than ideal solutions before deciding to eat and try sleeping some more.  

I did spent a bunch of money online though 😕  But, it won't ruin me.  

I slept for about 2 hours.  Needed it, but my sleep cycle is a bit of a mess (3-4 long days flat out then 3-4 days naps to "catch up" - both with early starts.  Sometimes nightmares - end of the world stuff).  

How can I feel lonely and wanting to be left alone both at once?  

[Dimity]

It's good you're aware of your online spending @KirSa_EnigmA . Would being with the right people help ground you? It's not surprising your emotions are all over the place when you're having these mood swings and your sleep cycle is out of kilter. I don't know which comes first tbh. What has helped you ride it out in the past? 

[Starlight6]

I understand the feeling of doing everything at once. I also get the same feeling. It's like you feel time is running out, and you must finish this list of tasks. You have the energy and motivation, but then something in the present moment stops you. Do you feel the same?

[tyme]

Hey @Starlight6 @KirSa_EnigmA @Dimity ,

I felt the same! I've been away interstate for a while and when I returned, I had sooo much to do, but very little motivation or energy. I felt totally overwhelmed.

So this is what I did. I write a list.

Then this morning, I looked at the list and started with the easiest thing to cross off. Once I did that, it gave me motivation to move to the next task, then the next, then the next. At this point, I have 3 things left on my list and I hope to tackle them tomorrow.

Anyone else have any suggestions?

[KirSa_EnigmA]

@Dimity I had been planning on spending this money, and it was kinda on my to-do list so it wasn't out of budget, as such.
I just needed to get SOMETHING done... and getting this off the list was one of them.

Usually I just need to wait it out... and hopefully not do something stupid in the meantime 😕

I think a few days to get myself back into a less stressed state will help.

The challenge is that I don't want to haha! I want to go bananas haha!

[KirSa_EnigmA]

@Starlight6

I feel like this, yes. Definitely the time is running out bit... urgency and disorder at the same time. Kinda stuck, but pushing to break out.

[KirSa_EnigmA]

Hi @tyme

Oh yes, I have lists haha!

Then my lists have lists!

I did manage to get a few things done today though... the dishes are elusive though.

I went out for a drive after being inside all day... but there's some crazy about with all the A-day celebrations going on... so I came home. I was going to walk on the beach but it's nuts out there. Not the calm I was seeking.

I have signed up for amazon prime and am going to distract myself with sci-fi movies until I sleep, I think.

The nap I had earlier has helped, and I don't feel like I'm going to do anything stupid any more.

[tyme]

Well maybe we just gotta keep each other accountable for what's on our list??? @KirSa_EnigmA  LOL

What I find is that I sometimes like to tackle the smaller things first to that I feel more accomplished. That way, it's easier for me to feel like I've achieved something. Or when things are REALLY hard, I write things on the list that I've already done.

I'm not saying this works for everyone, but it works for me because I'm very goal focused. Otherwise my head is everywhere.