Coming to terms with reality

[A2Z]

Hi @Appleblossom, Thank you. This is my best achievement so far. More challenging than giving birth I suppose. He he 

I repeat, it was not easy to get off meds. I do think it gives hope to others too. Each of us lives with different issues that cannot be compared. Our paths will be different. We have to reflect on the responsibilities we undertake and then take steps towards recovery and proper healing. We do not have effective support mechanisms. 

I am now in Maldives, my birthplace, visiting my parents and an opportunity to catch up with relatives and friends. 

You are so right. When kids are not well it is harder to help and support. Much more stressful than us being sick. All the best and sending loads of love across the ocean to you and your son. 

[A2Z]

Hey @Adek Thank you, for considering a friend. Now I have have a better purpose to be in this forum. In one post I read that you were wondering about our age. I turned 50 this year. Both my kids are grown up. All thanks to God. 

Gosh I had a hard time crying. Once I learnt to cry I fins it is an easier way to release pain. Now I feel less pain in my throat. I cry on my own and during prayer. @Adek you are not alone. 

Hi @Bubbles3 how are you today? 

Sending love from across the ocean. 

[Former-Member]

hello @eudemonism

you are doing very well abstaining from alcohol etc ....yes you will have some withdrawal affect initially 

caffeine is incredible ..some people have headaches when they stop

I haven't had coffee for 2 weeks now...want to see if makes difference to heart...plus my taste buds are still affected by virus....haven't given up chocolate though...so still caffeine there

4kittens...wow...is mum cat looking after them?   What does your dog think of cat and kittens?

time for bed

speak soon when can

take care

[Adek]

@A2Z....I stay alone..and feel lonely most of times too. I frequent the masjid for majallis ilm and dhikr, go to hospital for therapist appointmts, walk at the supermarket once a week to get stuff. Visit family once in a while. These are places packed with people..but at heart..i am still lonely. I do exercises and house chores. Do fardh and nawafil. Watch tv when i am bored. At times..i cry out of loneliness. Within our hearts..truly we only have Allah and Rasulullah pbuh as our crisis assist and helpline. When i think of both i always cry and there is a stabbing pain in my heart. I just feel this loneliness and longing will only subside in the day of gathering with both in Jannah. You were right we don't have proper support system like they have here. No support workers, no helpline..no crisis centre whatsoever. Its all that Helpline within our own hearts...

[Bubbles3]

hi @A2Z

im ok.
how are u

[Adek]

@A2Zthis could be my final post here cuz i have actually requested removal of account since Saturday. Perhaps the admins are taking sometime looking into it. I find it hard to speak my heart out here esp when there is prejudice in religious and racial issues. Being youngest in the forum.. and a loner who hardly interact with people since my retirement really made my responses sometimes blunt and inappropriate to elder members or anybody else. I love each and everyone of u here and appreciate all the advise and sharing cuz i lost my father, had a mentally ill mom since small. Being eldest lady of my siblings, i really don't have anyone older to guide me.

I really thought this thread was for those who have come into terms with reality but looks like it isn't lately. I've been crying a lot these past few days..crying again now while writing this. Have some crisis going on at mom's too so i can't head there as well. I was wondering if there is a forum among Muslims forumers in here @Former-Member that i can join?

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi @Adek,

I am really sorry to hear that you are not feeling well-supported here in Forum Land. I read that you have requested removal of your account. I think that's something you do yourself without having to get the @Former-Member to do it, although now I think about it, I don't actually know how to do it. Hopefully someone wiser than me will come along soon to help you out with this if you are still wanting to close your account.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Adek,

I am really sorry to see that you are feeling this way. I can understand that it has been a bit triggering to deal with conflict and I am sorry you are having some crisis's at home too. You are still so welcome to stay and get back to posting more in line with what this thread is about. You have developed good relationships here and you are always going to be welcome to continue on in this discussion. 

We emailed you a little earlier this afternoon regarding your request - please check your inbox and let us know if you would like us to resend it 

[Former-Member]

Hello @Adek

I want to thank you for all of your kind words and thoughts.

I will be very sorry to see you go

I too have been greatly affected by that experience 

I had to take some prn. Today at appointment with heart specialist I was told that there is a complication with my heart and more investigations are to follow. So I need to avoid stress....laugh...how????

nobody has the right to demonstrate such rage directly at a member 

I am very disappointed with lack of response from moderators re our health when we were not the ones who lost it.

so this might even be edited

if you can stay here...hold your head up high and let us continue on the way we started

should you still choose to leave I wish you all the best and hope that you can find a supportive therapist to assist you in having a better quality of life

hopefully speak soon xxx

s chicken soup

[Adek]

I missed u @Former-Member 😢