Coming to terms with reality

[Adek]

Here @eudemonism..all government staff are entitled to a pension scheme from somewhat 16% to 50% of their final month salary prior to retirement, depending on how many years they served..minimum of 10 yrs of service up to the maximum age for retirement that is at 60 yrs old. For normal cases..pension will be paid monthly upon reaching the age of 56 regardless of what age we choose to retire but for special cases like optional retirement under the medical board, pension is paid as soon as recommendation and approval for early retirement is produced by the board and ministry.

Yeah..i recalled the cigarette prices in your country was 8x more that here 10 yrs ago during our visit there. And since then our government has been hiking the tax annually as well..doubling the prices than it used to be.

I was out of house early this morning before 5am..driving up to a highland area for another seminar which started 6.30am this morning. Its cool here and breezy..and the gathering area is just next to a stream. There's also a small waterfall and a fountain..and birds non stop chirping on the trees surrounding the area up to now 10am while we are having our brunch break. The morning session was held open aired...on the grass surrounded by nature..where green carpets are laid on damp earth...till around 8.30am when the sun is bright and glistening rays can be seen through the dew drops. I've always loved coming up here..an hour drive through narrow and winding roads that lead up to the place. Before that was a highway going east..then through a long tunnel that marks a u-turn going up to the highland resorts where i am now. The tunnel always reminds me of Lady D though... May we all be remembered as much as her for all the goods we have offered around us.. @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

oh @eudemonism

your latest response has just touched my heart

you have been where I go when I walk...aware of everything and everyone....aware of nature...

what a beautiful walk you have just described....spoilt for choices you say... lucky you.... I have only country roads which can be dangerous......I am rewarded with the company of horses, cows, alpacas, sheep though

yes have managed a few walks recently with a huge struggle which is ridiculous because i used to be an avid walker

the mind can be so controlling

lovely that you have the awareness of everything around you....so many don't

@adek has responded too.....lovely

[Former-Member]

@Adek

I am sad too

[Former-Member]

@Adek

whitney houston ...the bodyguard...I thought that I would be polite and not say anything and then I thought why?

[Adek]

@Former-Member ..its Mariah Carey. U sensed my sadness instantly. Just rhyming it in my mind makes me cry each time . Whitney's on Bodyguard too.. these songs are all about self-worth. Really deep..

Yes am glad for you @eudemonism. I really hope we can all focus only on the good things from our past and look forward for better things coming our way regardless how minute it'll be... so that our minds become a strong magnet that attract the positive vibes. Despite the obstacles...against all odds...am trying to disregard them as speckles of dust on my pair of sunglasses that can be wiped away if i take the time and initiative to reach out and do so.

The sadness comes and goes... thats life. Lets not be drowned too deep but instead.. keep coming back to the surface..bringing along the shattered pieces and start again..

[eudemonism]

Hi @Adek thanks for replying in such detail. It has given me some insight into how it all works. And your day in the high lands sounds like it was very nice. There some amazing countryside out there around the world. For me, i have only ever lived in the same place and never done much traveling. Although i do remember a few small travelling adventures i have been on and would like to do more of it in future the government here has looked after me very well. But it has unfortunately been for all the wrong reasons (because of my problems )

Have you done much travelling in your time?

[eudemonism]

Hey @Former-Member the country can be great. Depending where you are on the map. I have lived on a really isolated and remote property for a while a few years back and it was pretty scary. No community around me for support. No one except family around for a half an hours drive. Literally in the middle of the bush. It had its good points. But those days are gone now. There was so much i wanted to achieve with my life and it has all been put on hold and swept under the carpet.

Is there anything you're wanting to achieve in the coming months mohill? Christmas and the new year is only just around the corner.

[eudemonism]

I am running low on medication. And am due to get my jab on Friday. I got two 4wds I'm looking at and taking for a test drive on Wed and Thurs. It's been a week since i used alcohol I'm hoping to sign loan papers and purchase a 4wd bye the 9th - 10th of next month. Really hoping i get a good deal and a reliable vehicle which will last me a long time and take me many places. Definitely struggling in the mornings. Having my dog with me helps.

[Adek]

Hello @eudemonism. Its so pleasant to read on your posts these days and i believe you actually are a charming person. This explains why you are easily approachable by friends despite their attitudes. Nonetheless..that marks your distinctive qualities above the rest.

I must also congratulate you on your decisions..turning on a new leaf...your achievements..passing hurdles after one another will slowly boost our spirits again. This ability to search on the good points of our past despite all makes our future undertakings more meaningful and hopeful..and the past will be cherished. Even the dog is praised now..the surroundings observed and appreciated..and these feelings of gratitude will grow and branching more positive attitudes within us...i hope.

I know Friday will be tough..and the days after will be trying, but keeping up with the good routines u are having now would be a helpful. Distractions..being out and about normally does the trick for me..and i hope it will do the same for u.

Yes..the previous job as biologist gave me privileges of travelling locally..for fieldwork, courses, training etc. And since being with my ex i started travelling abroad almost every year... Europe, Middle East, SEA, The Orient. Looking forward to another trip with my girls after new year. Its good to know you are getting around too. Loved driving cuz our small country here gets me from end to end within the same day. Hope you will enjoy your rides too...soon.

Take care..

[Former-Member]

@Adek @eudemonism

Am on iPad not as easy as desktop with keyboard

having trouble with anxiety at moment

willrespond soon

tired now ...sleep

yes injection day not an easy time for you

you have come far in the time that you have been on here

be proud of your achievements so far

sleep tight all