Dear StanD

[tyme]

Heya @StanD , 

Yes I'm around. I'll have a look at the email now 🙂

I get back to you soon.

[tyme]

Hey @StanD ,

There's no email. Can you check you sent it to team@saneforums.org ?

[tyme]

Hey @StanD ,

I have emailed you. Are you able to respond via email?

[Appleblossom]

Hey @StanD just sending a cooee over the net.

Wishing you the best for the silly season.

[StanD]

@tyme @Appleblossom @TAB 

Morning,

You need not reply.

I have anxiety, rage, disappointment, anger - feeling of disabled.

I have that elephant on my chest feeling. Tho, it's more than that.

Last two nights, very bad sleep. Crappy dreams. I am talking in my sleep. It takes every energy I have.

In my dream, I cannot talk properly.

(I work it out when I wake up i.e I must have been talking whilst asleep)

I have GP appointment today.

This anxiety.

It never goes away.

I have been drinking, almost daily. I'm going to try trade a break. I need clear head. I think it makes things worse. I crave the relaxation.

The anti-anxiety meds have limited use for me. I adapt within days. The anxiety is too strong.

I have psychologist. She is teaching me coping methods. They don't work on my own. With her, it went away.

It's these last two nights / days.

I am so angry, I cannot sleep.

xx

[Appleblossom]

@StanD 

Just dropping by for a quick virtual hug and chat.

Hope your resting and waking hours even out.

We are in a topsy turvy mode here, but no pressures so it is alright.

Loved hearing about your work with kids on the Christmas thread.

Yep cats and kids have a few things in common and caring for them has its similarities.

My mood has been varied. Its a complicated time for me. Had a smoocher from fb try to chat me up, cheered me for a bit, but too much honey and sweetness and I am gone. Has to be pure and homegrown.