@tyme @Appleblossom @TAB 

Morning,

You need not reply.

I have anxiety, rage, disappointment, anger - feeling of disabled.

I have that elephant on my chest feeling. Tho, it's more than that.

Last two nights, very bad sleep. Crappy dreams. I am talking in my sleep. It takes every energy I have.

In my dream, I cannot talk properly.

(I work it out when I wake up i.e I must have been talking whilst asleep)

I have GP appointment today.

This anxiety.

It never goes away.

I have been drinking, almost daily. I'm going to try trade a break. I need clear head. I think it makes things worse. I crave the relaxation.

The anti-anxiety meds have limited use for me. I adapt within days. The anxiety is too strong.

I have psychologist. She is teaching me coping methods. They don't work on my own. With her, it went away.

It's these last two nights / days.

I am so angry, I cannot sleep.

xx