Dealing with intrusive thoughts - my struggle!

[Former-Member]

Well done @Molliex , quite an achievement. I'm impressed. 👍

[Molliex]

Thank you @Former-Member. It took all of me. I'm exhausted now 🌼🌼

[Former-Member]

Hey @Molliex , just wanted to say hi and that I am thinking of you. Hope you're appointment goes well today and is able to help a little. 💖

[Molliex]

Thank you @Former-Member that's very nuce of you.

I hope it helps too. I hope you're having a good day.

[Former-Member]

Hi everyone. Sorry that I just randomly found this thread scrolling on the forums, I hope no one minds me popping in.

Anyhow, I just wanted to say that I relate to the intrusive thoughts. My thoughts seem to be getting more darker and scary and I can't stop them, I just have to "sit" with them I guess you could say. Whatever I do they're always there and won't stop. It's so hard and tiring, sigh @Molliex 

[Molliex]

Hi @Former-Member. Thanks for posting on the thread. I'm not sure we've met. Nice to meet you 😊

Sorry to hear that you struggle with intrusive thoughts too. They can be so tiring.

I'm doing better with them these days. Often I can acknowledge that they're there, but I don't engage with them at all. My psychologist has helped me immensely with this. It still beats me down some days though.

Do you have any strategies to deal with yours? 

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Molliex , I'm not sure if we've spoken either. Either way, nice to meet (well talk) to you.

Thank you, yes they are tiring. Sorry to hear you're struggling too.

Unfortunately i don't have any tips, I just "sit" with them I suppose you could say. It's hard. I try to come on webchats like Lifeline when I feel this way but I don't really get any suggestions. You?

[Molliex]

Sometimes I talk to my thoughts in a silly voice @Former-Member. I know it sounds weird, but I'll think in my head, "oh, I'm having that thought about being worthless again", and I'll think it in a really silly voice. It often takes the sting out of it. 

[Former-Member]

That's an interesting one, thanks for the suggestion @Molliex 

[Molliex]

Content/trigger warning

Trigger warning - pregnancy loss

 Please read content warning before reading below. I don't want to upset anyone

I was pregnant last week. I'm not any more. These things happen, it's very common early on. But people don't really talk about it. Are you allowed to feel something about it when it wasn't really anything yet? It was really almost just the idea of something...I'm probably silly to even consider wanting more children given how shit the world is and how close I came to leaving it [multiple times] last year. But the thing about being isolated at home taught me is that family is what is important to me, and I am not sure that my family is done.

I've spoken with my GP about my meds and what being pregnant would mean for me, so that's good. I also have so much support now and 3 diagnosed mental health conditions. When my i was pregnant with my daughter, i had none of that. I was so ill, i had such a complicated pregnany and I had serious health problems after she was born. I am so scared those things will happen again. But I am getting older, so it feels like if I am going to do it, now is the time. But far out, i think there's something wrong with me for wanting this? Ugh, i don't know. Thankfully I have a psychologist appointment on Monday so I will speak about it with them - i have so many guilt issues to work with around this.

Anyways, that's my update. Thanks to anyone who has poppped by to read this. Sorry if i didn't tag you xx

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