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@MDT Sorry I had to leave last night - was extremely nauseous again and super tired. Feeling better this morning but still tired. Should be okay once I get moving though.
As for the situation with your Dad - it is probably one of those situations where you need to try to have a conversation with him. I know that is super hard and very tricky - and the fallout could be massive but if it is giving you so many questions and causing you so much stress then mybe the questions need to be asked.
I can hear how much this is affecting you and you are definitley concerned that what your Dad is telling you all may not be what he is actually doing but it could very well ne the truth also so it really is a tricky one. This is not the first time you have questioned whether he is telling you all the truth and continued questioning of what he is really doing can build up and affect your trust in him. I suppose that is the big question here - do you trust him - and that is a very big question to ask yourself before you approach him directly. So much to consider before you do or say anything. Ultimately whether you say or do anything it needs to be a decision you make for yourself as well as the rest of your family - so a pretty precarious position it places you in. It is not an easy one at all and you need to be able to say to yourself either way that you have done what makes you feel okay with it all.
Whatever you decide and whatever you do or do not say do so with all the information you have squarely in front of you. I honestly do not know what I would do in the same situation here though as it really is a hard position to be in. I suppose it comes down to what you can live with yourself and you need to be guided by that before you act on your own feelings or not.
So not an easy position to be in at all and can completely understand your inner dilemma here @MDT 
You have come a long way @MDT both in your thinking about work and you wise consideration about the issue with your Dad. Sometimes we need to pull back and actually do nothing - and as hard as it can be to do nothing it may also be what is best for us. That does not change what may or may not be going on but it does allow you to sit with your feelings knowing that you have made a decision that is best for yourself. It is still not easy but a wise decision for you.
As for the girl in Poland - it is sad for you but the distance does make it difficult as well. What you should take out of that however is that you did connect with someone and so that can certainly happen again - you have so much to offer, so much care and compassion that there is someone out there that you will connect with and them with you 
I am still struggling with finances too @MDT My pdoc today bulk billed so that really helped. I am waiting to be paid for a couple of the extra days I did and the last pay pretty much went on the mortgage and vet bills. I am expecting that next month I will be more on an even keel but it would be good to pick up a couple of extra days this term to help out as well.
I hope your mum is okay - did she fall off a ladder or lower? Any fall is not good - I hurt my back tripping over things in the garage last year and falling onto other things - too months to feel better after that and a lot of physio. Great that you are all helping her out
