Battles

[Dreamy]

Hello @MJG017. it's been a hell of a day. Hopefully yours was better than mine.

It hasn't changed in fact the chest pains and tightness have started and I'm very dizzy. 

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

My day wasn't too bad.  I had my focus group in the city and spent a couple of hours talking to a friend, then went down to Blair Athol for chips!  So i can't complain.

I'm sure i don't need to say that sounds concerning with the chest pains and tightness. I know it's not helpful to keep saying what you should do, but it's only because we really care about your safety.  Just at least please be honest with yourself if it gets to the point where you really think you need to call someone.

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 sounds like i nice day all round. Oh a small win today, I managed to get that debt of over $6000 sorted out, turns out it was an error in the system because of my situation. 

It's already at that point but I'm being very stubborn tonight. I thought the shaking had eased but it's started again and it's full on. I just want a dull and boring life for a while. 

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

That must be a huge load off your mind!  I must admit, if it was me, I'd be pi$$ed that they put me through that for as long as it did.  But it's one thing off your mind so let's keep it positive and enjoy the win.

Maybe it's that stubbornness that keeps you going, but that sometimes it can work against you as well.  It's annoying when we spend our whole live building these strengths and then there are these time when even they work against us.  I really wish you could have a short break from everything and just spend a mind-numbingly dull and uneventful week. They do get annoying after a while.  I have plenty to spare so I would give you one in an instant if i could.

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 just hard to see it as a win when there's so many other things going on. I made 7 phone calls today trying to sort things out finally spoke to the person who is supposed to be sorting out the ndis stuff, another phone appointment has been made for Friday at 10am so hopefully they ring this time. Forgot to make 1 phone call today so that's a tomorrow job and that's the one to a legal service so I'm dreading that one. 

I'm just stubborn when it comes to going to hospital 😂. It's just scary and overwhelming, and being a human on cushion is no fun. My head is pounding which is from a lack of oxygen as my levels have dropped, seriously can anything else go wrong. This body is broken, I want a refund 😂. I'm gonna steal some of those uneventful and dull weeks from you, I need some. 

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

Well i see it as more than 1 win!  The worry of the debt is gone, and you made 7 phone calls today.  I know how much you hate doing that, but despite everything going on, you did just that.  When it feels like it's all losses it's so important to celebrate any wins!  You had some big winds today so try to keep that in mind, and be proud of yourself.

Yes, well, no one goes to hospital just for fun I guess. 😁  If it was possible to get a new body, i'm sure i would have found a way by now.  So i'm afraid i have no good news for you there.  I can't even find anyone wanting to do a swap.  I have my teleconference with the specialist tomorrow afternoon.  So if you're going to steal one of my boring and uneventful weeks, can you do it after that? 🤣

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 I'm surprised that I made all the phone calls but I just kind of get into that moment and get it all done. Thanks for helping me see the wins. I was doing ok until a bit before my doctors appointment then things just started going bad and it didn't stop. 

Why can't we just body swap with people, would make things alot easier and keep things interesting 😂. Oh I hope that teleconference goes well, I'll be thinking about you and keeping my fingers crossed. I guess I'll wait until after that to steal some of those uneventful weeks 😂.

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

I appreciate you holding off on your little heist.  I'm terrified he's just going to look at me and tell me to start getting my affairs in order.  It's so hard not to think about the worst.

Imagine if we could swap our bodies for a while.  I could give some gym junkie mine, let him go nuts and then give it back.

Making one phone call never makes me feel like another is easier.  So i think you did an amazing job to make 7 of them.  I am not exaggerating when I say i wouldn't make 10 in a year!  Well, i do have to ring Flinder's Pharmacy every month to order my drugs but i'm not counting those.  They're always very nice so i don't really struggle with those.  Which makes you wonder what i worry about when ringing other people.  I don't have an answer for you, other than I do.

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 i know how hard it is to not think the worst but I'm really, really hoping that there's another option somehow. 

Yes someone can do all the hard work to get the body healthy and then just swap back, honestly what could go wrong 😂. 

The anxiety was there with every phone call and there were tears with alot of them given the situation but i pushed through and just got them done. Tomorrow's one is going to be the hardest cos that's digging up a whole heap of trauma. It's easy to ring some places especially if they are nice and you are just used to doing it but it doesn't make ringing other places any easier cos there's too much of the unknown. 

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

You're not the only one hoping for 'not terrible news' tomorrow.  Fingers crossed.

I can't seen anything at all going wrong with the body swap.  Nothing at all.  I guess it would be nice if he let the body recover a bit from all that pain of working out before he gave it back.  That doesn't seem like fun.

You did push through and make those calls, so you did really, really well.  I can only imagine how hard tomorrows will be.  Maybe it would help if you imagine all your friends here at Sane sitting there with you while you make the call.  We've all got headphones on so we can't hear anything if that helps.