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  • Author : avant-garde
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  • Topic : Talking through trauma and PTSD
04 Dec 2024 06:29 AM
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Ha! I found a way! Success! 

 

Now what I actually came here to write...

 

I hate Christmas... I hate Santa... and I hate everything it never was for me...

 

TW: rape, drugs, alcohol, abuse

 

Content/trigger warning
I hate that I have more memories of Santa raping me than I do sitting on his knee
I hate that it was my busiest time of year because people were bored and wanted good sex
I hate that I didn't see outside for months at Christmas because I was tied to a bed with a line of men who paid for me
I hate that I was starved into submission or unconscious from alcohol or drugged into submission
I hate that I never knew summer holidays but instead summer slavery
I hate the end of year celebrations where I was the main attraction in my red and white lingerie and the men all around me for me to give them their blow jobs
I hated being raped constantly by Santa after Santa after Santa.
I hate that the pastors wives bought me for their husbands for Christmas
I hate how busy January was with all the sex vouchers men got for Christmas

I hate that I can't eat Christmas cake or pudding or fruit mince pies because people ask and it just reminds me of why and everything I've gone through

 

I hate that it feels so wrong to be a Christian who hates Christmas because of what it became for me...

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