@lighthouse22 @Dimity   I’m still in the early stages of preparation with EMDR.  Due to my upcoming eye surgery my next therapist appointment is not until early November which will be a phone appointment during which, the aim is, to start doing what my therapist calls mapping.

couple sessions ago she had me go to my safe place in my mind whilst with her.  She suggested I do same thing at home whenever I want or need to. At home it has helped and I feel relaxed after. Weird thing is safe place I created in my mind whilst with the therapist is not where my mind goes to when I’m at home.  Therapist has explained I dissociate, makes sense as have chunks of my past I have no memories of.