@Dreamy  It is what it is and so much is out of my, or anyone's, control.  The most frustrating thing is that there is nothing anyone can do.  That's why people's support and compassion means so much to me through this.  As i'm sure I don't need to tell you, life just isn't fair sometimes.  That's why it's so important to support each other.  Another thing I definitely don't need to tell you.  No wonder my posts are usually so damn long.... saying all these things I don't need to say! 😁