@MJG017 ok, so this is a sensitive subject for both of us. Love the example that he used and it's very true that if support and that sense of safety is offered and received after a traumatic event it can minimise the long term damage. However it's not always the case as we both know, we have had to learn how to deal with things ourselves with little or no support. I learnt coping strategies from a very young age but that came at a cost to myself (self harming), I also put myself in far from ideal situations in order to feel a sense of safety. I have been through alot of trauma and I've been left with no support or if I have found support it's been ripped away from me cos of someone that thinks I'm undeserving of any support. So even now I struggle to cope with trauma and I tend to go back to those behaviours that are detrimental cos it's all I've ever known and it's the only way I've been able to keep going when things get bad. 

I don't see it as complaining, it's sharing your story and your struggles. I'm glad to be here to listen to your rants and whinges and to share this journey with you. Plus we seem to be able to relate to each other alot which I think really helps to have that common ground.

It's really never dull here 😂. Let's just say I'm not coping. A service that I spoke to made a report about my safety but it wasn't actually warranted. So after several phone calls the ambulance service was satisfied that it was not necessary for them to attend and that this service got their information mixed up. Of course it's going to have repercussions, so that's what I'll be left to deal with now. 

Anyway what's on your agenda today? I'm trying to find the energy to move from my bed, but my head hurts and I just feel blah. I need someone to make me my iced coffee and bring me some happy pills 😂.