@MJG017 there's definitely many reasons and it's very sad that some of us don't have those connections. It's a horrible feeling knowing that you weren't born into a family that wanted you and that you've been denied the most basic needs as a human. It's something we as humans need in life and for various reasons we have been denied. That love, connection, safety, comfort and understanding from those that should have been there to care for us is so important for becoming a healthy adult. It's not hard to replace, it seems impossible. I can really hear how painful it is for you to not have that connection and I wish things were different for you cos you deserve all the support in the world right now. Know that you aren't alone and I'm here for you, I know it's not the same but I'll always do my best to make you feel heard, valued, cared for and supported through everything ♥️. 

I've just spent the past few hours while I've been in and out of sleep dealing with phone calls from police and the ambulance service. It's just great fun over here, slight sarcasm there.