@MJG017 yeah I'm the same in always thinking that maybe things will be different this time and then get angry at myself for allowing myself to even think there was a chance. 

I hope i can get through it, would be better not doing it alone. But I think the person that's supported me recently will step in and help me through this aswell. 

It's just the thought of having to face them in that situation, having to go through all that trauma again, telling someone everything that I've been and going through. It's going through 17 years of abuse with just this 1 person 😞.

My lounge gets fed plenty 😂

Hey that gadget looks pretty cool. I'd gladly listen to you talk about astronomy, it's so fascinating. 

I hope you enjoy catching up with your sister tomorrow ☺️