@Jynx especially when things are the way they are right now. I fully opened up on that chat to say exactly how I was feeling and how close to the edge I'm feeling and it was completely dismissed. Like my brain is sending off those alarm bells to let me know I'm not safe and I tried to get that across to them but they just ignored it. 

I've gotten many puppies home safely, there's been lots of happy endings but also sad endings, not all make it home safely but at least the family get closure.

It was time for my nightly abuse to be screamed at me so now I'm not in a good state, well an even worse one if that was even possible.