@Jynx i get that it's worth a complaint and it's something I'll consider if I can find the energy to do so. 

I keep trying even when sometimes every part of me wants to give up. It's hard when that mind set goes to the thinking of 'I'm a failure at everything, I can't do anything right, I'm stupid and pathetic'. There's that tiny, tiny part of me that tries to think that maybe something will work eventually. 

That vagus nerve gets me everytime, it'svalways working against me. I sing along to every single song that comes on 😂. My radio is on all the time if I'm not watching my TV show and if the radio isn't on I'm listening to my Spotify either blasting on my speaker if I'm cleaning my house or on my ear buds if I'm doing my craft. 

My area is pretty boring, I can't put things up so it's just plain on the walls. But my table is cluttered with various craft items, there's always something within reach that i can work on if i want to. I haven't done anything today, kind of just had a day of laying on my lounge watching a movie and dozing off for a few minutes at a time.