@Dreamy 

It's strange.  I've done quite a bit of reading into trauma and coping mechanisns and responses over the past 8 to 10 months and have discover quite a lot about why I (and likely many of us) have these negative thoughts about myself.  Why I blame myself, why I don't feel needed or wanted, why I feel useless or not worthy of any praise.  I understand now where most of it comes from.  And I still can't stop it!  I'm better at it, sure.  But it's still there and it's still always the first thought that enters my head.  And it's still a big struggle to control.  It was a lot easier when I just believed and accepted it.  Now it's like this constant internal argument in my head... and it's exhausting!  I feel like Homer Simpson when he got the crayon removed from his nose and became smarter.  He ended putting it back because being smarter just made life too difficult after being like he was for so long.

Sometimes I hear a cat being sick in the morning while I'm still in bed.  My first thought is where is it coming from... Is it on the wooden floor or the carpet?.  It's always the carpet by the way.  The 2bd thought is a mental reminder to watch out where I step when I get up.

How do you have a meeting about an anonymous complaint?  You are basically assuming the complaint is valid.  I guess it would depend on what the complaint is.  If it was serious enough, then I can see it worth discussing.  Still seems odd to do it on a Sunday though.  Unless it involves a church.  And yes, u think about things far too much!  I'm such a nosey bugger! 🤣

You need the glasses with the open eyes painted on them.  I've seen them, it's very hard to tell the person is asleep.  I talked to a person for 2 hours once, thinking they were still awake.  Okay, okay... we both know that's not true... as soon as I said I talked to someone it was obvious I made the whole thing up! 😁

I might go see if I have something to paint some eyes on some glasses.  I could take them with me to lunch.  I'm cutting it a bit fine though.  I haven't even started getting ready and I have to be at Marion in 30mins.  Oh no, I might be a bit late.  Darn. 😦

You're getting kitten cuddles though.  Totally worth any inconvenience.  Could you smuggle me in to the meeting at all? 🤣