@Glisten it's hard when you feel like that. I don't really have family to compare to but i certainly haven't done well for myself. 

I've been through so many abusive relationships whether that be physical, verbal, emotional or coercive control. I've gone through it all and it's been hell. I'm so sorry for what you have been through, it's just not fair. Having to start from scratch is so hard, completely having to rebuild your life or rather make a new life for yourself. 

But you are amazing and you have the strength to get through anything life throws your way. You have so many amazing skills and you will find somewhere that appreciates that and where you can flourish, it just takes time. 

You know we are always here for you and will walk this journey with you ❤️