@Dreamy  I consider myself the Loser in my family and extended family.

Everyone else has done so well for themselves.

I got into a 13 year covert coercive control relationship and it ruined my life.

I didn’t even know that it was abuse until 6 months after he abandoned me on the opposite side of the country.

Starting from scratch, with nothing but a 10 year old car, 3 boxes and 2 suitcases at my age is not meant to happen. Everyone else is planning retirement and I’m trying to find lifestyle job opportunities, that will give me a decent income, give me a sense of purpose and be fore filling, is no easy task.

Being hounded by the feeling that it is all a massive effort and what if it takes me nowhere?

But I really don’t have any alternative.

It is, what it is.