Hey @Dreamy, thank you for sharing your experiences with the community!

Sounds like you are going through a tough time, and it's understandable that it might bring up some heavy thoughts and feelings. You are demonstrating your strength and resilience by reaching out to your peers here on the Forums. 

I just wanted to check in with you about whether you have someone you can talk to right now? Sometimes, it can be really beneficial to talk about how we're are feeling when we get thoughts like we don't want to be around.

I will pop some crisis support numbers here a well:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Lifeline Chat 

Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636 or Beyond Blue Webchat

1800 RESPECT: 1800 737 732, www.1800respect.org.au 

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or Online Counselling 

Kids Helpline (up to ages 25): 1800 55 1800, http://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/phone-counselling  

If in immediate danger: 000  www.triplezero.gov.au/triple-zero/How-to-Call-000

Take care

RiverSeal