@SkiptheDog 

Sorry, just saw your reply to @Josie72. Didn't realise that you've been through the counselling path, and up it, and back down it, lol. Sorry to bombard you. 

You're right, it's not easy finding the 'norm' on the spectrum of emotions, especially after masking with substances. It can all feel too much, or too little. It can take quite a few years for things to even out. Good on you for getting on the rollarcoaster to 'feel-town', after all that. 

Wishing you a bit of relief. Also, just want to say that you should be proud of yourself. Sometimes we look back and realise we're further along the path than what we might have thought x