Hi everyone,

I have been struggling a bit with my symptoms of BDP. I had the diagnosis about 2 years ago and have been on medication for it which has helped a lot. I have been in a relationship with my partner for 4 years now who has really been my rock throughout this whole journey though it has been extremely tough and I know I have pushed him beyond anyone's limits. He of course has been nothing but supportive and assures me that he is sticking with me no matter what.

One of the main symptoms is severe fear of abandonment, which I actually have not truly felt until lately. These last couple of weeks I have been absolutely riddled with anxiety around not being good enough for him or that he will leave me for someone else. It has gotten to the point of me coming up with the most irrational theories that I know is not true but I cant shake this horrible feeling. I usually talk with him about everything as he really helps me analyze and work through my feelings but with this it just feels icky and I don't want to talk to him about how low my self-esteem is...

Maybe I am here to let out some of my feelings, maybe I am here for some advice... Either way I would appreciate anyone's post. Thanks