@Oaktree 

This is exactly what I was afraid would happen. This is not my wish at all.

This whole scenario is way out of control. In my wildest dreams I tried to reassure you. 

I am sorry if my choice of words seem to trigger you each time.

I am at a loss.

Perhaps you would be better speaking to Sane than me.

I just seem to make you feel worse.

It is beyond me why other than for some reason there is something that triggers your past. There is definitely not any intention or scheming on my part. Hand on heart.

If you read back to the very end of my message you will see that all I want is not to have to go through being hurt again, the same as you are feeling now. I wanted to welcome you back to the thread with open arms....you landing in my arms with a thud.

That would be the best outcome. 

However, if your problem is me that will not stop this from happening again.

If you feel so strongly about this, it is not my place to try and talk you out of it.

Perhaps it is me who triggers you and that is what it is despite the fact that I have no idea why.

So, delete me , if that is what you must do.

Do not punish yourself further for no valid reason.

You have every right to stay on this forum.

I for one will request that you do so.

You do not have to associate with me at all if you do not want to.

Do not let this situation affect the strong friendship that you have with Henry; he has no part in whatever this is.

one very confused Sophia1