Hello @Oaktree 

I decided after the messages on that thread tonight that it was best not to try and sort out why you were upset. It became very apparent that you were upset with me, not the thread. Each time this has happened in the past I have jumped in to try to reassure as I do not like hurting anybody. I have not at any time understood why you have reacted so strongly.

I am unaware of people's triggers as are you.

I am under so much pressure with my son's health deteriorating again. I try to keep my pain on the one thread.

 I am also in the midst of reducing medication and experiencing restlessness and teary moments.

 I feel for you with your health. My health is not great either.

we all have to try and be mindful of this when interacting with others. 
I mentioned that I might not be on the thread due to real life; how I was feeling and also how I sensed you were reacting with me. 
I have tried more than once to reassure you and include you. 
I cannot keep this up ongoing if I feel that you are attacking me again. I hurt too. It hurts me to write this. This also triggers me as I have spent my whole life treading on eggshells around family members and some acquaintances.

I wonder if you read certain words and then think that I am meaning something else totally.

 I am now scared that you are going to be even angrier with me. I have to be true to myself now.

This is not an experience I want with anyone let alone a forum member. That thread was started as a break from the painful side of the forum which is a must. We have to have some fun and spontaneity on there. 
People will come and go no matter what the story is. 
We can be whichever character we want to be.. at the same time bringing some fresh ideas. 
If you think that you can learn to accept me as I am. Understand that I never mean any harm. If unsure Take me aside as you have done now and explain how you feel at the same time asking me how I feel. Reassure me that you will  not personally

 attack me on the other thread.. my answer is yes of course I can forgive you.  You can bounce back over there and land on my lap. A big hug waiting for you. 

That is my wish also

Understand if you need time to think also.

Sophia have no 💜 option. My phone. Ugh