Thanks for the update @EternalFlower . I believe in you. 

I recognise it was terribly hard recently, but I'm glad to hear you have bounced back. 

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I wonder if feeling 'foreign' is a common feeling in that you 'let go' of self in order to learn more about yourself? That was my experience. I realised there was an intense lack of self-identity and I had no idea who I was.

Hugs @EternalFlower . So so pleased to hear from you.