Hey @tonys @Oaktree @tyme 

@EternalFlower @@@@Glad you found friends close by.

Hearing you about spt co-ordinator’s conflict of interest. Some people do not even realise … it’s a bit unethical. Yep @Dimity @is right. It’s hard to find good people. Gelling with people in ones home…hmmmm. Been through a bit with these so called services 

We had an incident here on Thursday where cleaner was aggressive about Netherlands policy on refugees. Challenging me! I only visited there once for a month 40 years ago. Was just being friendly about coffee. I became upset and started talking about all the bombers near my mother’s family, the trauma and premature deaths. Let it go and they finished shift.  I am so overly compliant and wanting to please.  Learning to say no, not good enough. Talked with son and I cancelled them. Feel bad for the man’s wife but honestly. Cos all my privacy was damaged as a child I can be too open. I am learning at last to say. No thank you… and insisting. Not being bullied into accepting or forgiving anymore. Been too forgiving. He gave off an agro vibe generally and lied about the time he arrived and always claimed extra time 10 15 mins here and there… times 2 cos they were a couple. I gently had called it out a few times. I am so sick of being used as a cash cow. If people are getting paid to do a job they should do it properly.

Anyway that’s over. See what’s next on the slippery slope of life.

take care Bella