@Former-Member i dont want to take over your thread so will write here.

I cabt keep having time off. I have to go work with the person who triggerred my csa and i dont think i can handle it. It was unintended on their behalf but as u know it doesnt work that way with trauma.

No they wont be aleeping over and thats the time ill need to go do the second job. With xmas approaching ive got lots of horses to be doing. Ones going away as of tomorrow for a few days then another in a few more days then another in january.

I dont know if anything is worth it anymore. Im too senstive to triggers. My works triggerring. Family. My own house 😞 there seems to be nothing that doesnt trigger me. Even outlander was getting to me today so had to turn it off.