I really wish you could right now @Jynx I’ll accept the virtual one though thanks. 

I feel like I’m headed towards a complete shut down. But I don’t really know what that means at the same time. I’m worried about what might happen if I do shut down. 

It feels like the truth. It’s like I know it’s the truth and there isn’t anything in me that can see it differently. 

Maybe you’d be the only one to care. But I’d just disappear. Then you wouldn’t give me a second thought. It’s ok though I wouldn’t either. 

I had a really hot shower before. My skin was red and prickly. It didn’t do anything though. It was a waste of time and energy. It’s suppose to help. It’s suppose to make everything ok. It took so much for me to do it. 

He only does it to one bear. He bites  it and shakes it around at the same time. He is pretty violent!