I’ve been saying a lot over the last couple of days and I’m sorry @Jynx 

I no longer want to be here. I hate my job and I have to go back tomorrow and really don’t want to. I feel like I can’t do it but I have to unless things change tonight. My dogs would be better off without me. I’m not a good mum. I’m not a good person. I’m not a good daughter or I wouldn’t be thinking this way. I’m just a horrible person. I don’t contact anyone. I don’t have it in me so I’m a horrible friend to. I hate myself. I hate my entire being. I hate who i am. I hate that I’m selfish. I hate that I’m nice and considerate. I hate that I let people walk all over me. I hate everything about me. I hate that there is no good in me. I hate that I’m all bad. I hate that I can’t do boundaries. I hate that I feel this way. I hate that all I do is whinge. I hate that I’ll let some people down. I hate that I’m not thinking of others. I hate that I just don’t care anymore. I just hate.

Why do I try when I’m nothing? Why do I try when I know people wouldn’t even care? Why do I try when I don’t care? Why do I try at all? 

He finished humping and put his whatsit  away and then started humping again and had to put it away again! He isn’t very smart. Pix jumped on the lounge for the first time so she has stopped whinging!