Thanks for seeing it in me @rav3n. I don’t. I know I’m a kind and considerate person but I hate that about me and need it to change. It’ll cause me less pain. 

I feel like I neglect them. I don’t take them for walks and I didn’t bath them today when I was suppose to. They did spend the day in my bed though. 

My oldest is so sweet most of the time but the youngest is a little arsehole. He has such an arrogance about him. Not sure if it’s a male thing or a black dog thing. We had a black male years ago and he was arrogant. 

My RAV is really quiet. You can barely hear it running. There is no battery to go flat. The one thing you have to be careful of is driving in foot traffic areas like car parks. People will walk straight out in front of you because they can’t hear the car! I am really happy with it. The fuel consumption is really good especially when I travel 45kms to work. 

Im extremely comfortable with my psych. I met her when I was in hospital so she has seen me at my worst. She helped me and knew parts of my story from being in there so the transition was kinda easy. I tell her pretty much everything. I do wish I could see her in person more regularly. 

Yeah I had comments made and received consequences about my crying. I’m scared to cry. There is the fear that I’ll be punished. That’s where the shame comes in. 

Thanks for tonight. It wasn’t easy for me. I was anxious but I really appreciate the time and effort. Thank you.