I know you have gone now @Jynx but I just wanted to respond anyway. I feel like I need to. 

The whole idea of moving is hard. I’m not motivated and I’m too fat and lazy. It’s my insides. It’s hard to describe. My outside has nothing to give. I just feel like I’m wasting your time by not being able to do things. 

I have kinda slowed my breathing down but it’s still rapid. My thoughts won’t stop racing and my heart is pounding. I feel like I’ve lost any control over my body. 

I am so so so disregulated. I know that but I’m unable to bring myself back. I’ve tried my spiky ring and I just tried ice. I can’t make anything work. 

Nah.. not a silly goose just allowing you a reprieve from my mess.