I feel sick @Jynx

It’s all making me sick. It’s making me all agitated. It’s making me restless. My thoughts are out of control. I’m not feeling very strong. I’m really struggling. I’m such a loser, such a failure. So much wasted time and energy on me that I don’t deserve. I’m not good enough. I’m just useless.

Im just nothing. I’m not even a person. I am just a waste. I am hurt. I am in pain. Why am I even here? Why do I even try? Why am I not worthy? Why am I me? 

Im trying to watch tv but I have no focus. I have nothing. I want to go to bed. I dont want to go to bed. Nothing is making any sense. I am all over the place. 

One stupid dog just woke up and started growling. It was a teddy bear a metre away from them.