It was helpful to have it pointed out. She did it in a really good way. @Jynx. I told her I feel like I’ve gone backwards. I’m a complete mess. 

It is exhausting and no it didn’t sink in. It’s not believable. It’s not the truth. 

My dogs are really annoying me off. I just want them to go away. All they are doing is annoying me. I can’t cope with them right now. Pix wants something and I don’t know what that is. Jett won’t get out of my face. I can’t do it.

I’m shaking, I’m in the verge of crying again, all I feel is intense pain. I wish I could just go to bed. I hate being awake. I hate being me. I hate what I want to do. There is only one way to find some peace. The thoughts are there. 

Sorry for being too much again.