@Eden1919 I reckon @Star121 gives great advice. As I was reading your post I was thinking how well you were articulating the problem. I would include in a document some links to info on shutdowns and how people can support you when you're in shutdown. It's so disappointing to hear the people who are suppose to be supporting you aren't listening. Do you have a metal health professional you see who might be able to advocate for you, or contribute something in a letter? Best of luck with it. I know constant advocacy work to get your needs met is tough.