My psych picks up the ‘should’s’ It’s something Ive always said. She just told me to stop saying it. She has reduced me saying ‘sorry’ a lot. 

I didn’t see it as harmful but if I look at it in certain contexts I can now you pointed it out @tyme. It’s another way of me putting myself down. 

Im having trouble restraining. I start and then fall backwards, but when I fall I fall hard. Right now it’s really bad and I’m talking really bad. 

I’ve been on the dangerous ones most of my life. It’s like it’s normal. 

You did make sense 

Mum has a leg brace so that she can actually walk or she would be in a wheelchair. If it’s uneven ground she always falls over. 

Sorry.. there is so much running through my head right now. Stuff I can’t say.