I'm on the same boat... No matter what happens (good things) any time of the day, my mood swings are hard to control... Then to have a thinking of catastrophicing and having black or white thinking doesn't help too .. then there's the voices and nagging urge to SH and/or end my life makes me feel so anxious almost all day... Then the cherry on top is then I get treated like crap from people who suppose to help and support me isn't doing their job with compassion and empathy to a point that I feel I'm being punished for something I have no control of... So what do everyone wants me to do? Should I continue asking for help and hope it works or Should I just relieve everyone of my troubles by putting the end into my story? I honestly don't know what to do...