@LovelyBones88 it sounds like you're really keen on doing some deep, internal healing work. Looking into the past to better understand how your experiences have shaped your thoughts n behaviour, examining your options for moving forward.

This sorta stuff is often only possible with a good therapist with whom we have a safe n trusting relationship. You had a therapist before?

I really am hearing you on how this is triggering lots of suicide ideation. I totally know how scary it can be to sit with those kinds of thoughts. Unfortunately, the Forums aren’t a counselling or crisis service, however you can call any of the following services for immediate support:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

Please know you're not alone hun. There is always hope for change 💜